Self Awareness

Welcome to the answers. Well maybe not all of them but you are probably like me. You read a book or listened to a podcast. Then you were like it can’t be. Is it? Then maybe it explained a lot of the bad behaviour you were around. Welcome to the club. First off, it is not your fault. We have all been sold a bill of goods that other people and their feelings are some how attached to our anus. It is simply not true. The purpose of this block is for education. Plus I do plan to share stories from my past with some of the things I endured. My story goes all the way back to age four when a family friend branded me and then lying to my mom saying her daughter did it. To the present to where now I am speaking out about what I went through. So maybe not all the answers but one thing I want you to realize. You are not alone.

  • Hey Folks.

    You found me another blog about narcissistic traits and narcissistic personality disorder. You probably have seen a lot of different ones. Well, hang time be ready for a bumpy ride. The purpose of this blog is to continue the conversation. I am not a mental health professional but even they are behind on this phenomenon. I really discovered the full scope of what I was in ironically after my mom passed away back in October 2022. I knew I had some decisions to make going forward. Go with the rest of the herd or be a lone wolf. I choose the second option. I couldn’t believe how deep I was in this and in my case my parents were not narcissistic. It was indirect narcissistic abuse due to the people my parents continued to socialize in our circle. I grew up around my mom’s side of the family. My family were people of faith but the family friends and outliers in the family left a lot less to be desired in my book. I always had the feeling in my gut going back to when I was a child that something was wrong with some of the older adults my parents called family and friends. I did not know how to articulate it at the time but it was clearly evident I was around people who had strong narcissistic traits. After all my culture had extroverted people who were loud and seemed to blame their problems with the other cultures around them. My parents were from St.Vincent and then the common thing would be like St Lucian’s are such and such. Jamaican people are such and such but the funny thing with people from the West Indies after they do their bashing of the other islands. The all have a common enemy. The white man. Now I grew up around this and I am speaking objectively what I heard. I never thought this. One of my best friends who is white I grew up with whose name is Mark him and I were tight when we were kids and still communicate together when we can today. By the way folks I am going to say black, white, chinese and the names I grew up describing racial differences. If this offends anyone go on to the next blog.